Every midnight When I try to sleep lying aside on bed after shutting the lights down,I stare into the darkness which sleeps beside my pillow. There I could see her,dreaming with the other. Sooner I take a round and shut my eyes loudly, and start doing breathe in breathe out gymnastics. Then I think, "if she could see me now what would she feel like to say me??"
Then again I think,"she won't say anything,she just keep laughing for my breathe in,breathe out exercises." This is where I forget to sleep and feel the beauty of her smile, writing down her name in the air. Then I feel worried and motivate myself saying,"all happen as written in fate." Then I rub my forehead too hard. My thoughts go now to the god, begging him to give her back.
Then again I think that,which God has taken her away from me.? Then I talk to myself, "maybe her God and my God are playing chess! She was her God's soldier and I was my God's. My God made a wrong step and I have been killed by her God." My conscience tries to fill courage in me and asks me to change the topic away from her. Then I light up my chimney, drag my smoke deep and tap the cigarette to drop it's ash. I notice the ash moving along with the wind,sticking to my skin. Then I turn to Newton thinking about the Gravity,Earth etc.,
But writer in me, pushed those Newton thoughts away and written the below statement thinking of her. "Her thoughts are against the gravity, they never go down of my mind."
By the way, I wasted my night same as yesterday. My dear heart ,there is nobody who wants you to live in their lives. They stabbed you to death. Either die or heal soon. Don't stay late nights,rubbing the wounds. They remain the stains. Healthy sleep brings a healthy body.
Go,sleep!!
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